greatest fear: to not be loved.

sometimes when you just take up and go like that, i wonder if you ever think about me. if you ever miss me. and if you do, then how you could leave me. 

& what does that say about me?

i know im not supposed to be emo.

but sometimes i just feel so 'not enough'.

(mighty emo portion below, for those who see me as a perfect holistic angel, DONT READ!! you'll be like "OH NO, ANN IS HUMAN!" haha. )

not good enough a student.

not good enough a sister.

not good enough a daughter.

not good enough a friend.

not good enough YOUR friend.

not pretty enough.

not thin enough.

not smart enough.

not fun enough.

not serious enough.

i wonder if i'll ever be enough in your eyes.

i guess in man's eyes i may never be enough.

its amazing how God you are able to love unconditionally this girl who falls short in so many ways. i know myself, and i know that there's nothing about me or my life that deserves Your great love. i realise i've taken Your love for granted time and time again. Forgive me, and somehow You are still here with me, to love me and to hold me.