never could i comprehend the love You so freely gave; never could i be with You but Your love covers all of my sin. <3

hardest day of all.

if this is any indication of what 2009 is going to be like,

God help me.

i feel like i've lost a friend, my very good friend. not exactly how i pictured i'd start the new year but yea. was crying in the presence of God yesterday before crossing into the new year, at that moment standing before 2009, the reality of how i couldnt go through this year (and the rest of my life for that matter) was just so strong. and immediately after stepping into 2009, the next few hours was indeed hard. thanks boonkiat for your card and your encouragement. it comforts me to know that i have a friend like you to talk to and who is there for me whenever i need moral support.

well some of us stayed over in church after the watchnight service. i wasnt planning on staying over initially, but xiaojing and joshua wanted to stay and it just didnt feel right to go home anymore. the both of them are seriously too cute la haha. anw most of the night was basically spent doing nothing much. went to eat a little with gerard taf and joshua at 4am at macs cause they were hungry. in the end i reached home at 9am and slept all the way until 6pm. (:

was supposed to have dinner with the family but they were eating chicken porridge with no taste. haha so i ate bread. and now im here alone in my room again. back to the place of wishing that everything would be ok.

i trust You, Lord.

if anything, know that You are all i want this 2009. i just want You Jesus.