YOU!

sometimes i wish you would be there to experience it all with me. you know, by my side? or at least that we wouldnt only just have a technological relationship. that isnt the way its supposed to be.

why you? why now? why is it so hard for me to make sense of it all? im sick of all the deciphering. i'd really rather much prefer if you made it so clear, that it could be put to rest in my mind. honestly, sometimes i even wonder if you realise that you are the reason for my sleepless nights. 

thank you. thank you so much for being there. i think i must have driven you mad with my insanity. you have really encouraged me greatly. you are really someone that is very important to me.

after 20 months, i finally see you as the person that i should have from the beginning. sorry for putting you on a pedestal. it wasnt fair to you, and it was hard on me. im still glad you are in my life though. i couldnt imagine doing our thing without you.

i dont want you to get the wrong idea about me, about us. it would ruin everything we have. i truly treasure our friendship greatly, and i wouldnt want anything to change that. please dont change. please dont change let our friendship change.

IM NOT EMO; IM JUST HONEST!