i want to go home.

Father. its too hard. i need You now more than ever in my life. i feel like im going to die. please Lord, help me get out of this valley. i know the only way through this is by moving forward, but i pray you help me get through this as an overcomer. i cant go on like this Lord. please bring me through this time.

IM SERIOUSLY GOING TO DIE!!! OR AT LEAST IT FEELS LIKE IT. I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO BACK OFF! ANYONE WHO DOESNT BELIEVE IN ME, WHO WANTS SOMETHING FROM ME, WHO IS IN ANYWAY ADDING TO THIS WEIGHT IM CARRYING, JUST GO AWAY! SERIOUSLY GO AWAY!

if your words toward me are not encouraging, keep them to yourself, cause though you try to help, you really arent!

you (hypothetical, not anyone in particular) think you know me so well. but really you dont. i just need you to back off. i know you mean well, but that is not how im wired, i need to to back off for me to get everything right. seriously when you try to 'help', it's really only just killing me slowly. very very very slowly!!